So officially i have one complete leg.
My right leg knee has crucial ligaments torn from all sides.
21, august,2009 I had a 3rd degree ligament tear in which m side and beneath ligaments got torn . My doctor did me a plaster for whole leg for 8 months and 4 months physio after which i started walking.
23rd august 2012 i met with an accident and my acl ligament in the same leg got torn completely. This time my doctor is keeping me under observation and has prescribed few physio exercise. If it doesn’t work then i have to go for a knee reconstruction surgery where muscle from other thigh will be taken and put between the two bones, to support that screws will be put from both ends of the leg bones. Followed by 6 months bed rest horror and then again learning to walk.
IN all this, i have lost hope to walk properly again. Now its a life long problem maintaining this leg. Now i cant dance or do walking like any normal person. Now things will be slow for me. I wont be in a hurry as i have to be careful about my leg. One more accident on the same leg and i will lose the leg … then no reconstruction will help.
I am a clumsy person and i keep falling, getting hurt and mess things around.
Its a diff. task for me to look after myself.
At this point rather in every point of my life.. my goal is not career, m goal is not love, my goal is not being rich, my goal is not growth. My goal is to walk and keep healthy. My goal is to keep my weight low so that my legs can bare my weight. My goal is to manage my body and to survive.
I feel laid back , i feel i have lost the race, i feel i am not good enough… i cant focus or run for career.
I have to focus on myself. My leg, my body weight and building muscle strength in my legs to bare my body weight.